101 Days Until Our Wedding: When It Rains It Showers?

(There is a pretty big reason I haven't posted much in the last month or so. And I finally felt like I needed to put it into words. Part of me doesn't want to put this on here, but in full honesty I no longer care what people think.  This is my journal of my journey to my wedding.  And I need to tell the whole truth. So disclaimer, this contains family drama...sorry)


When I was in college I was part of the Spirit of Northwestern. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's a college marching band.  A three hundred man strong college marching band.  It's big. It's loud. And it's good.  Well because I went to school four hours away I hardly expected my parents to come to every game despite their constant promises that they would attend one. Want to know how many they came to? None. It only really got to me once.  The last game of my sophomore year. We played our arch rivals Stephen F. Austin.  It was cold...one of those beautiful nights for football.  I knew they wouldn't, couldn't let me down this time.  They would be there.  I practically sprained my neck looking for them in the home stands.  But they weren't there.  When I got done with the game, I called them.  My mother told me that they just couldn't make it.  No excuses, no real reasons and certainly no apologies. Somehow, even though they had broken so many promises, so many times....it still surprised me.

Now you must be wondering what the hell this has to do with anything involving my wedding.  I mean, I promised my next post would be about my wedding shower right? Well I am getting to that.

In the middle of June I went to visit my parents.  I was going to be picking up my wedding dress and taking my mom to do a few wedding type things that needed done.  Plus we were going to be finalizing all the shower plans.  I'm not sure if I mentioned it on here but in early February my nineteen year old brother and his girlfriend found out they would be having a baby.  And it would be due the week of my wedding.  Needless to say I was shocked, angry and honestly betrayed by my parents allowing something like this to happen (my brother still lives at home with them.) I have never had the best relationship with my parents and an even worse one with my younger brother. I made it clear from the beginning that I was not happy that they had been so irresponsible and potentially made it to where my parents would miss my wedding. I was discussing pregnancy with my mother as pertaining to my future career as a midwife and in one of his fits of uncontrolled anger he decided to go off on me and my mother joined him.  In the end they both decided to call me everything under the sun, make up lies about me and my mother even decided to hit me.  Well I left their house at midnight.

Despite all of this, I decided to invite her to my shower, which had to be thrown together by my friend's and Devon's family last minute (not that it wasn't completely and absolutely wonderful.)  All I asked for was a simple apology. However, instead of wanting to patch things up with me, I find out the day before my shower that she has been lying to our entire family and making up things that are certainly not true (which finally made sense to why none of them had r.s.v.p.'d to my shower)  In fact, one of my Aunt's went as far as to put things on facebook that were lies.

No one from my family showed up.  No one called or texted.  No one even sent me a facbook message.  My mother has always been manipulative but this time she took it to a new level. I don't even know how to explain the things she said and accused me of...and my friends and in-laws, who have never done anything but be nice to her, even when she is doing insane things.

At this point, I am three months away from getting married and I don't think that I should invite them or any of my "family" to our wedding.  I feel so betrayed and perplexed everyone's behavior. Maybe some of them forgot or had other plans.  But I can't help feeling that my mother had her hand in this.

It's funny...after 25 years of abuse, belittlement, and general mistreatment...I still get surprised.


(I will post about my shower tomorrow.  It was absolutely wonderful. And my bachelorette party was a blast.  But I just had to get this off of my chest.)

106 Days Until Our Wedding: Bridal Shower This Weekend!!!

My bridal shower is this weekend and I could not be more excited!!! Despite the fact that quite a few people can't make it, I still feel like it is going to be a really good time.

Plus, I get to go bachelorette party it up with (at least) two of my oldest and best friends.


If for some reason, you got invited and are going to show up, I put the wrong address on the invitation.  The shower will be held at Devon's Aunt Sheryls house.  The address is as follows:


1408 23rd avenue north
Texas City, Texas 77592


I'll post another update next week!  

114 Days Until Our Wedding: A Real Catch-up

First of all....HOLY SHIT I'M GETTING MARRIED IN THREE AND A HALF MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry for the language but considering what's about to happen in my life, I feel the situation warrants a little excitement :)


So in all of the craziness that is my life, I have been unable (and somewhat unwilling) to blog lately.  However, I have had a lot of wonderful things happen in my continuing life as an engaged woman nearly about to get married.

Well, I got my wedding dress.  Yes, finally all of the waiting is over and all that lace, chiffon and silk belong to me.  Yes, I cried a bit when I put it on.  Yes, it's still to long even though I ordered it in petite.  Yes I still need to lose weight in order to feel better about the way I will look in it.  But to be honest, there has never been a more lovely dress in the history of weddings.  But then again, shouldn't all brides feel that way?

A few weeks ago our lovely friend and photographer, Miss Lilly Hare, drove all the way from Louisiana and took our engagement pictures.  She is simply wonderful.  Even though it was hot, we were all a bit tired from staying up to late and the fact that Devon and I are sooooo awkward in any kind of photograph situation, she in all her amazing abilities molded us into some pretty amazing pictures. Like these:

I don't know if you can tell, but I simply adore this man.  He's my reason for getting up and each day I spend with him gets better and better.

Next weekend is my bridal shower and my bachelorette party.  My wonderful best friend is throwing both of them.  I'm hoping that certain things happen and don't happen but we will see how that goes.  I will definitely post again before and of course after it. 

Until then, I will be busy working on favors and picking out hairstyles :)

114 Days Until Our Wedding: I Should Apologize

Let me start by saying that when I began this blog, I fully intended to update once or twice a week at least.  I was so overjoyed by getting married and sharing this with all of my friends and family.  What bride is not happy about the prospect of her wedding day.

However, this journey has not been an easy one for me.

There is a lot I don't want to go into detail about but know that I have not abandoned this little venture.  In fact, I have a few updates planned.  So to all the people who have followed me, I apologize.

But please, keep me in mind...I am under more stress than any normal bride. :(