7 Days Until Our Wedding: A week! Where has the time gone??

I seriously can't believe that in one week I will be Mrs. Devon Lee Drake.  I will be a wife.  That is so intense I can barely handle it...


I have a weird secret about Devon and I.  I still feel the same way about him as I did when I first had feelings for him....let me explain.

When people fall for each other they always get that crazy, butterfly, mad about you, can't breathe when you walk in the room feeling.  Soooo, even though we have been dating for three years, and I fell for him years before that, when we were sophomores in college, I still feel that way. When I see him I get butterflies.  When he kisses me he takes my breath away.  When I see his name on my phone I always get a huge smile.


I am so lucky that I get to marry him.


On another note, I did have a funny thing happen to me yesterday. I was telling my best friend and maid of honor how I hadn't really had a crying moment yet and I was really surprised since the wedding is so soon.  Later that day I was catching up on a few shows that I had missed and this little nugget happened...

I lost it.  I started crying uncontrollably .... it just wrecked me. I am so glad I was home alone because I seriously watched it nearly 15 times in a row (and several times today) and couldn't stop crying.
I have watched this show for a while, with Devon, and seeing them get engaged just really hit home....

16 Days Until Our Wedding: I'm feeling the pressure :/

I don't feel so good.  Every night this week I've been up and down all night trying to calm down about the wedding.   I feel terrible all the time.  I'm so nervous...I just feel itchy. I don't know if this is normal or what.....


I'm (and let me make sure that this point is made) not scared to get married.  That is the best part!  Devon is going to be my husband.

I'm just tired of spending our savings (or should I say Devon's)  I'm tired of worrying if everything will be okay.  I'm just tired.  I need to stop feeling stressed.

It's almost painful.  I just want this to be over.  Two weeks and I can start the rest of my life :)

37 Days Until Our Wedding: Starting to Feel Nervous

I'm truly starting to get wedding jitters.  Well I guess they are wedding jitters...I'm not sure what else they could be....

Now, I am not nervous about becoming Devon's wife.  I am fully prepared to spend my life with him.  He is an amazing, wonderful man.

I'm more just nervous about the whole of it.  Being a bride.  Walking down the aisle without falling or something. Having people fuss over me and him.  Taking a ton of pictures.  Wondering if my hair is silly or my makeup to dark.  Wondering if my dress looks good. Trying not to drink to much because I tend to do that when I am nervous.  Not biting my nails because that makes me look like a child.  Not getting lipstick on my teeth. Messing up my vows. Spilling wine on my dress. Snapping at someone for asking me the same question 800 times. Not letting my sweet Devon push cake in my face. Not crying.  Not forgetting to breathe. Thanking all the right people. Making sure all the right people are paid. Making sure no one gets their feelings hurt or something.  Hoping all the things I made and worked so hard on aren't ridiculous looking or people think they are stupid.  Wondering if I should cover up my tattoo on my shoulder or just let it be. Worrying someone will forget to turn off their cell phone and I'll throw my bouquet at them. That someone in my family will show up and make me miserable.  Anyone showing up who shouldn't be there.



....sigh.... I feel so nervous that something will go wrong and that's all I will be able to thing about...grr.

44 Days Until Our Wedding: I'm About to be a Bride

This weekend I am having my bridal portraits taken and it's a really weird feeling. I feel a bit overwhelmed that it is getting so close to our wedding. I'm not scared, it's just a lot to take in.

 I am going to be a bride

I am going to be wear a wedding gown

I am going to have everyone looking at me as I walk down the aisle

I am going to pledge my love, my trust, and my life to the man I adore

I am going to put a ring on Devon's finger 

I am going to become his wife

HIS WIFE

Wow.

I don't really think I can articulate what that feels likes knowing that I get to spend the rest of my life with Devon.  He is my perfect match, my complete companion and the absolute best person for me to spend all of our days together.  I love him so much.  I just hope everyday I can make him as happy as he makes me.  Because he deserves nothing less than all of me.  I am so, so blessed.

66 Days Until our Wedding: Important Announcement :)

Today I picked up our invitations from the print shop.

Whoa.

That's right, you heard me...invitations to my own wedding.

72 Days Until Our Wedding: AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Did you read the title of this post????


Do you know what that means????


I AM GETTING MARRIED IN LESS THAN THREE MONTHS.


whoa. *deep breaths*

So basically, I am now...

And I feel like I am going to fall apart at any moment.



So many of my nights are spent like this...

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Sorry, that was really needed.  Ugh.  I just feel so stressed and overwhelmed and like nothing will get done and it will all fall apart.

:(

However, I did find this little picture today and it made me feel better...

So maybe I'll just use all this anxiety to my advantage.

Meh.

The end.

86 Days Until Our Wedding: Dreams Come True :)

This is the story of a girl....

who had a rather large appetite for pretty things :)

so pretty :)

One of the most important things to me when I began to plan this wedding was my wedding dress and how I would look on our wedding day. Silly, I know, but if all of our friends and family are going to be looking at me all day, I better look and feel good about myself.  And I knew I wanted a couture gown that would wow everyone and I wanted to wear something fantastic in my hair. When I began to shop for my wedding dress, my wonderful fiance offered to pay for it...and told me I could get whatever I wanted.  Oh my, what wonderful words those are.  And I even decided to be good.  I wasn't going to even look at dresses that cost over $1500.  And when I found my beautiful dress I was even more pleased that it only cost $1400 dollars.  But somehow my silly wedding addled brain forgot about taxes and it ended up costing $1700 dollars.  Quite a shock to me. (and probably a bit of a shock to my poor sweetheart) I was even fortunate that the bridal shop threw in a veil.  I decided from then I would just make my hair piece and not spend anymore money.

Enter Emici Bridal.

Oh My Goodness.  From the minute I found Emici Bridal accessories from one of the wedding blogs I follow, I knew I had to have one.  Her pieces are so amazing.  Beautiful, delicate, and far lovelier than anything I have created.  And oh so expensive (not saying they aren't worth it, considering the amazing materials she uses)  I simply couldn't afford to purchase one of them to wear on my wedding day.  Alas but a girl can dream....

And lucky for me, Marie, the designer of Emici Bridals likes to give away her work!

I couldn't believe my luck, six months ago, when I entered the first Emici giveaway on Style Me Pretty.  I was sooo desperate to win.  Unfortunately, I did not. :(  But this wasn't my last chance.  I followed Emici on Facebook, on Twitter, hoping for any contest that I could enter to win something, anything, knowing that her lovely hairpieces were what I needed to complete my wedding day look.  And finally...

Lucky me...I finally won!!!

My diligence paid off a few weeks ago, when I couldn't sleep and wound up on Twitter.  Emici was giving away another one of her beautiful pieces!!

And I won!

I seriously couldn't feel any more thrilled or blessed.  I am so excited that I get to wear this on my wedding day: (Sorry for the yucky pictures, my camera is dead so I had to use my phone!)

The packaging was so lovely I didn't want to open it!

So pretty!

The Swarovski Topaz crystals are so pretty!

I am so happy :)

It's silly to want to feel like a princess, or something like that, but this is my wedding day.  And I am very glad that it's coming true.