37 Days Until Our Wedding: Starting to Feel Nervous

I'm truly starting to get wedding jitters.  Well I guess they are wedding jitters...I'm not sure what else they could be....

Now, I am not nervous about becoming Devon's wife.  I am fully prepared to spend my life with him.  He is an amazing, wonderful man.

I'm more just nervous about the whole of it.  Being a bride.  Walking down the aisle without falling or something. Having people fuss over me and him.  Taking a ton of pictures.  Wondering if my hair is silly or my makeup to dark.  Wondering if my dress looks good. Trying not to drink to much because I tend to do that when I am nervous.  Not biting my nails because that makes me look like a child.  Not getting lipstick on my teeth. Messing up my vows. Spilling wine on my dress. Snapping at someone for asking me the same question 800 times. Not letting my sweet Devon push cake in my face. Not crying.  Not forgetting to breathe. Thanking all the right people. Making sure all the right people are paid. Making sure no one gets their feelings hurt or something.  Hoping all the things I made and worked so hard on aren't ridiculous looking or people think they are stupid.  Wondering if I should cover up my tattoo on my shoulder or just let it be. Worrying someone will forget to turn off their cell phone and I'll throw my bouquet at them. That someone in my family will show up and make me miserable.  Anyone showing up who shouldn't be there.



....sigh.... I feel so nervous that something will go wrong and that's all I will be able to thing about...grr.

44 Days Until Our Wedding: I'm About to be a Bride

This weekend I am having my bridal portraits taken and it's a really weird feeling. I feel a bit overwhelmed that it is getting so close to our wedding. I'm not scared, it's just a lot to take in.

 I am going to be a bride

I am going to be wear a wedding gown

I am going to have everyone looking at me as I walk down the aisle

I am going to pledge my love, my trust, and my life to the man I adore

I am going to put a ring on Devon's finger 

I am going to become his wife

HIS WIFE

Wow.

I don't really think I can articulate what that feels likes knowing that I get to spend the rest of my life with Devon.  He is my perfect match, my complete companion and the absolute best person for me to spend all of our days together.  I love him so much.  I just hope everyday I can make him as happy as he makes me.  Because he deserves nothing less than all of me.  I am so, so blessed.